I just got back from a dreary day at work. When I moved to NB, my sister Squidge took over my 2nd job at the gift store, and I filled in for her today as a favour. Now that I'm home, I feel a little better, but my mind is still a little numb.

Not too much is new. My dad's father is in the hospital. It seems that he had a heart attack at some point and ended up falling in the parking lot of his apartment building. He's in stable condition, but in the ICU. I'm worried. Perhaps unnecessarily, since no one else in my family seems to be, but I just have a bad feeling. A dark feeling.

As soon as Steve found out, he came over for about an hour and made me feel infinitely better (as being around him does tend to do) and I feel a lot less apprehensive today.

But there is something that worries me, and it worries me a lot. My dad is in Florida right now, golfing for the week. To the best of my knowlege, my mom has not called him to tell him what is going on. I understand her reasons for not doing so--he is in stable condition, and there is nothing my dad can do--but I also know that when my dad gets home monday night/tuesday morning, the shit is going to hit the fan and my parents are going to have a huge fight. Knowing this, I'm almost tempted to call and tell him myself, but if I do that, I will be responsible for starting a huge fight between my parents (and they won't hesitate to tell me that), and my mom will treat that as a betrayal.

What to do, what to do?

Blake (Megan's ex) just came over to visit for about three hours. I still can't decide if I actually like him or not. Even though Megan and I aren't really friends any more, and they aren't together anymore, I still feel obligated to be nice to him. It sucks.

Jensen called, so I'm gonna go for a walk with her, I think.

Rhiannon

"each day I see the ball and chain
grow a little more ingrained
why is the world so damn unkind
to one so righteous in his mind?"

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