I received a phone call yesterday from HHP. They offered me a job. However, it's not the job I wanted. (That would be at Sainte-Marie.) They want me to work at Discovery Harbour. I have nothing against Discovery Harbour, and normally I would quite like to work there, but there are a lot of complications to it. The first is that this job should, by rights, belong to none other than my beloved GRavity. He's worked there for two years as experience staff, and should have been promoted to student contract this year--except he's not bilingual. I am, and the only new staff they were hiring had to be bilingual.
I feel like crap. I don't know what to say at all other than that. I know Gravity does not begrudge me the job in any way, but DH is his life. He worships that place. Both of his best friends work there, and many, many people have said that he is the best tour guide they have. Or had, I guess. I hate me sometimes.
I have some other problems with the job, but every time I think about them I keep hearing the MightBigTV people yelling, "IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU!" in my head. But my considerations are a) DH is an extra 15 minutes or so away--a huge pain in the ass for my parents who have to cart me around in the summer; b) because DH has a 4 on, 2 off schedule, (not the fixed 5 on 2 off of Ste. marie) I have to give up my second job; c) (and this is the most important of these reasons) I don't get to work with my Angie anymore. She is my soul sister and we had so many plans for the summer, like SMATH: the Musical, and torturing Jeff, and...when I called her last night she started to cry.
Dammit, I just don't know what to do. Ok, there is nothing I can do. I've already accepted the job...I can't afford to turn down $8.50 an hour. I am applying for student staff at Bell Canada, so maybe I'll end up in Toronto for the summer. I don't want to particularly, but if it's more than HHP than I guess I'll have to.
I had to advance register for next year yesterday and inspite of the fact that I got ther e2 hours and 45 minutes before it started I was still 200th in line. Fortunately I got all my classes, but it was pretty iffy for a while there. and a colossal waste of my time. I'm taking Studies in Shakespeare, Creative Writing Poetry and Prose Fiction, British Literature from the Medieval to the Modern, Military History I and II, and Psychology for Educators. Plus a non-credit Orientation to Teaching course.
I've got class, so I should jet...if anyone knows what I can do to make things better, please let me know. And I'd like to send my love, thoughts, and prayers to my adoptive mother Greengrl because she's having a tough time right now...I love you Bon.
-rhi "it's the terror of knowing what this world is about watching a good friend scream, 'let me out'"