I don't know how long/short this will be because I imagine it'll have to be quick. I don't know what to say. I wrote a nice big long entry the other night and then of course my computer froze and I lost everything. I'm still sick and losing my voice, which is not such a good thing when you consider that I need my voice to do my job. Fortunately I'm off today and tomorrow.

I had the most awful/awkward/terrible/horrible/no good/very bad conversation with Gravity Man last night. I had a cruddy day yesterday, capped by the fact that he got called into work and had to cancel our date. This had nothing to do with our fight, because after 19 years of having both my parents doing on-call work, I know how that goes, but it did disappoint me as I had been looking forward to it. Anyhow, we ended up having another one of our non-fight non-conversations that was really both, and he's worried by the fact that we don't ever fight or argue. This is apparently my fault. Actually, it is my fault, and I know that. Can I help it if I avoid conflict? Can I help it if I'm afraid to lose one of the best things in my life? I'm not really sure what's going on--the conversation ended on an awkward note thanks to CallWaiting, which is so not my friend--but I hope to god I figure out what's wrong.

I got to make a cross at work yesterday. I made it out of a cedar pole that I had to saw in half and notch out and nail together and this cross that I made is actually going to mark someone's grave. It's about 5 feet tall. It's a very, very strange feeling to think that I will mark someone's grave.

Speaking of graves, I was quite saddened to hear that both Douglas Adams and Perry Como have died. Perry Como has long been a part of my Christmas celebrations...I know little else of him but that, but it's still important. Douglas Adams, I've only discovered in the past two years, but I'd grown to love what he wrote. Except for So Long And Thanks For All This Fish which really wasn't all that good. Gravity emailed him once, and he wrote back. May flights of angels sing both these men to their rest.

There's a rumour circulating among the administartion at work that I'm a lesbian. It's a long story that I won't get into because I'm sure none of you care, but I don't know how to take this.

I wish I were someone else.

-rhiannon
"they say spain is pretty
though I've never been
Daniel says it's the best place that he's ever seen"

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