Finally, a long overdue entry needs to be added. I've been trying to do this all week but due to general busy-ness and a few pretty neat thunderstorms, I haven't been able to get near the computer. Did you miss me?
It's been so long now I can't even remember what I wrote about last time...let's see. Well, Benjamin came up to visit me on Sunday, which was Babar's birthday, so we (being Ben, my mom, Squidge, Babar and myself) went out for supper at Moose Winooski's, which was pretty fun. Man, I miss Ben tonnes. I got to take him to Ste. Marie the next day, which was pretty cool. Apparently the Zellers in Midland develops black and white film, so I bought myself some of that and went to town with my SLR. I'd forgotten how much I love photography--if it weren't for random conversations with MaintenanceMike about cameras and such (he's taking Graphic Design) I probably never would have dug out the Praktika from the basement. It's so old it actually says 'made in the German Democratic Republic' on the bottom. I can't wait to get my digital camera. Which will probably happen about mid-July or so, I think.
Other than that it's been a fairly uneventful week. Work was fairly uninteresting...my tours went well. I did have to explain mass and transsubstantiation to a group of grade sevens who seemed decidedly underwhelmed with the whole process and openly contemptuous of the idea that Catholics actually believe the wine/wafer to be the body and blood of Christ. Which I can understand, but it was an odd experience nonetheless. I'm in the process of making a chair right now, which is pretty cool. I have no idea how well this will work, since I basically spent all of yesterday just getting the logs de-barked and the knots knocked off the sides. But it was fun.
I'm sure I had great things to write about once upon a time, but they all seem to be missing me right now. I'm supposed to do something with Gravity Man tomorrow, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. If we do just friends stuff it'll be okay, but we'll probably end up talking about more post-breakup stuff and it will suck. Sometimes I feel like being really immature and posting a link to his journal here so that you can see what he thinks of me now, but I'm still exercising a sufficient amount of restraint to not stoop to that level.
There's one part of our breakup I've been thinking about a lot lately...after the initial breakup, in one of our subsequent conversations, he told me that the breakup would be okay for me, because I'm attractive and would have no trouble dating again, whereas he would never find anyone else. I tried to let this go at the time, but in the two months since them it's made me increasingly bitter. Because such a statement is essentially an acknowledgement that he was only with me because i was attractive, and that this is my only appealing quality. It doesn't matter that I'm intelligent, that I have a quirky sense of humour, that I'm caring and thoughtful, that I'm a nice person or any of my other good qualities--I'm only ever going to date again because I'm attractive. Way to marginalize me, dearest ex-boyfriend.
That's about all the rage I can muster for such a beautiful day.